我很烦啊！我真得很烦。比赛就要开始了。家里却这样。What should I do now? WHy cant mom understand how I feel at all? I thought she is the one most understand me. I just found that she cant at all. I'm so tired. I'm still like a child. I cant take care myself. I can feel that I'm not a independent girl at all. I'm living in a over protective environment. I cant even handle the competition by myself. I'm wearing in other people shoe for like so hell long and I cant complete such a simple thing. I'm enough. I have to move out. I have to grow up and I must within this 3 months. Its a short time I dont know it will succeed or not I will try my best.

I dont want to care anymore about the two old people life. Its such a fucked up excuses that they dont want to break up when I'm still small. They've break up now but still acting so bitcy and keep doing such a villain action. I'm so much enough. I'm so not in any side anymore. They asked me not to care about their thing at all and yes, I'm not at all. I dont want to be in the middle. Its so tiring.

I'm really enough with this life.

Oh buddha, am I too selfish for treating them like this? I just want a normal, quiet life. Am I too selfish?